I was too scared to look at you
As I feared of what I would see
Perhaps my unfulfilled  destiny
Mesmerised by the pupils of your dark eyes
Drowning in your mahogany irises
When I looked… 
So instead 
I giggled
Out of nervousness
And tried to speak
With a trivial tongue
Attempted to think of inane comments
Where my carnal thoughts of u were buried
Within the
The deep recesses  of my smile…   
And all of the time I was looking at your Halo
Your halo of thick,  woollen and unconquered  hair 
memorising to self
How my fingers 
Would embroider patterns of passion
Entwining your strands
So I could one day be entangled
Deep within your redemption
And when I sat  on the seat
Squeezed up next to you
Hearing your heartbeat synchronise with mine
I anticipated your soft spoken words
As they fell like molasses  from your full lips
I was caught in some kinda matrix
I don’t want this journey to end 
But it did and you left me
Feeling


  Confused...