I am forced to play with myself
physically
while they toy with my self-esteem,
self-worth and self-identity
I have become an entity 
consumed with thoughts of intimacy
Stroking my tool
takes a toll on my diverse moods;
from anger to bewilderment,
this is not how I was meant to be viewed:
A man overwhelmed with erotic thoughts,
the enormous weight of being without 
and reduced to the self-inflicted,
embarrassing past time of playing with myself