While praying for you to understand me
I ask God for divine wisdom
so that I can understand myself
I am full with mixed emotions
and I am so bloated
 I can only feel released
through heavy breaths
and tonight
I breath deeply
uncertainties weight heavy on my mind
unable to discern my place in you
I search for my place in God
giving Him my love
but I
am left
emp-ty
remembering how much love
I gave you
unacknowledeged and unreturned except for
crooked smiles that were always
unsure of themselves
sinking in my own confusion
obsese and angry
not knowing where to turn
I stand
Stand in-between who I am and who I will be
when I accept the truth
that you don’t love me
I scream
scream to heaven,
scream to hell,
scream to that emptiness inside of me;
trying to wake an instinct as old as adam,
scream at the thought of touching you in hidden places
places that only God has seen
on the day
He first shaped and formed you;
trying to hide myself behind your eyes
because there
I see love;
screaming my name but only hearing yours...