denial

by Nyahbinghi

i drink red wine every night
soon as i get home from work
just to relieve some stress

but, i ain't no alcoholic

never mind 
that i drank four bottles of it 
all by myself...
the equivalent of a gallon

still, i ain't no alcoholic

i don't drink in the morning
you know, to get my day going right
like you see some people do

naw, i ain't no alcoholic

never mind
that i have withdrawals during the day
head pounding, stomach churning...
feels like i'm going insane

but, I ain't no alcoholic

i only have a few drinks at night...
helps me sleep better
cause i have that thing called insomnia

see, i ain't no alcoholic

never mind 
that i lost track of how many drinks i had
i ain't sleep 
but passed out on the sofa

but, i ain't no alcoholic

i can stop drinking anytime i want 
and just chill around the house...
kick my feet up and do nothing all day

i ain't no alcoholic

never mind
that it only lasts 15 minutes
cause my stomach's all in knots...
i think i'll just have one bottle

but, i ain't no alcoholic

i can hold intelligent conversations...
discuss world peace and politics 
with a drink in my hand

nope, i ain't no alcoholic

never mind 
that i was beyond drunk...
don't remember 
half of what i said

still, i ain't no alcoholic

i don't spend my last dime
on some good red wine
i still have plenty of money leftover

i ain't no alcoholic

never mind 
that i spend more on alcohol
in a month
than i do on groceries

but, i ain't no alcoholic

drinking makes me feel good
makes me wanna dance and sing...
have a party up in here

i ain't no alcoholic

never mind 
that halfway through the night
i can't stop crying...
feel like i don't wanna live no more

but, i ain't no alcoholic

if i was an alcoholic
i'd be the first to admit it...
i ain't afraid to 'fess up

see, i ain't no alcoholic

never mind 
that i'm trying to bullshit myself 
convinced i don't have a problem...
denying that i'm an 
alcoholic


denial by Nyahbinghi

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