Should I maintain silence, or explore how I feel
Am I feeling false impulses or are they actually real
Mentally in a familiar, comforting yet challenging place
In between a grey, anxious and undefined space

My emotions say one thing, the body screams another
Distracted by my past as well as a future potential lover
One is pulling me backwards, the other ready to progress forward
In between past tribulations and future triumphs feeling cornered

What is my truth, am I ready to face off against reality
Or is it possible to give the menacing past closure and finality
Time pauses as I attempt to clarify what is in my life and what is out
In between constant battles of certainty and doubt

Trying to find myself while appeasing others too
Dueling with my emotions battling my heart to be true
Struggling to fulfill wishes, demands, standards and expectations
In between closing past chapters and exploring new relations