Finally Free
Not worried about you
My identity is set in stone
Anointed vessel used by God
Walking in deliverance
I’m free
Fitfully and wonderfully made
This life I could never trade
I’m free
Looking back I struggled so long
Heart pounding
Head aching
Pulse racing
Constantly anticipating your next made
Hiding my money, jewelry
I’m a wreck
So stressed yet blessed?
Incurable disease
You hurt me
I’m free
Anger boiled in my veins
Hard times in poverty
I worked it all out
Your cursing and hurtful words
Self doubt
You blanketed me in over and over again
I protected you while I remained vulnerable
I was plundered
Kill, steal, and destroy
My peace, hope, faith and joy
Tears sting when the one you love makes you cry
Eating bitterly from this plate of longing and pain
Left my heart stained with ugly memories of being beaten down
Spit upon and trampled on
I’m free
Tasty morsels of happiness crossed my lips
And I licked my fingers
Relishing the taste
Ain’t life great?
I crack a smile & remember that it’s not my fault
Not my guilt to wear
I’m sick and tired of being in “this” life
Sick and tired of so much shame
Sick and tired of being the blame
So I kicked off the shackles of being less
I’m not bitter only better
So I'm writing this letter
I’ve had a long talk with me and
Decided I’m free