I'm disillusioned
Yet cannot talk
Aimlessly trying to focus excess energy on this and that
Unable to satisfy my restlessness
Antsy
Pacing
Wandering from room to room

-Open
My thoughts are rampart
Frantic
Clamoring
Chaotic
Streaming into becoming madness
Reach for pen and pad
 SIGH!!!!!

The page listens
As the pen translates
Random
Meaningful
Unnecessary thought
Of why's
And how's
And what if's
And whatever
Today
Tomorrow
And yesterday
And beginnings
And endings
And tears,

Tears,
Lots of tears

With the words I write
I shatter pain
And destroy hurt

I gather consciousness collectively; culminating in a climatic 
cacophony of cosmic, cataclysmic candor
That spills forth courageously
Cascading
Stumbling
Falling
Emerging casually from within

I calmly count the minutes as they tick by towards my soft sweet sigh
Of peace
...as that pen writes furiously
In between the lines

The lines
The lines...
The lines swallow each word and digests them...gorging itself
As they fulfill its cause
Only to be regurgitated right back onto the next line
And page
And notebook
Forever
And 
On
And
After...