Remember the nights of Candle light and fun,
Remember the time I was your only one.
Remember the day I relieved our fate.
And told you "my friend" was late.
Do you remember saying "I won't abandon you?
yet that's what you proceeded exactly to do.
You loss of love for me I can understand,
but leaving your child makes you
much less than not a good black man
And every night I ache inside
because when you left you took my pride.
You hurt inside you say that's true????
But we hurt inside much more than you.
Even when I begged you to stay
you packed your bags and were on your way.
The tears on my pillow they do burn
this has been a heart breaking lesson to learn.
When you saw me in court you wouldn't look me in the eyes,
it must be hard to see through such trickery and lies.
At the paternity test you were a "no show"
I guess you had somewhere important to go.
You say child's support something you won't pay
"they'll" take it out your check anyway.
It's been a year since you've seen his face,
your missing out on such amazing grace.
The grace of his smile and big brown eyes,
I pray to God you I won't despise,
because hatred is a consuming emotion,
and I need to love my child with complete devotion.

I'm not the first nor will I be the last
to be mom acting as dad
Being a Single mom is a tough cross to bare,
but why am I telling someone who obviously doesn't care.
I'll do it all alone and teach our son to do it right,
never mind a "babies momma" make her your wife.
I'll teach him how to be a man,
love his child and do all he can,
I won't sit back and watch him leave babies in his wake;
I'll show him what "precautions" to take.
A deadbeat dad he will never be,
I won't allow him to follow your legacy.

Even through you are a deadbeat dad,
you gave me the greatest gift I'll ever have.
A love I've never known like this before
a baby boy that I adore.
Memories in the making, laughter, and love for years to come,
So as a gift giver you're number one.