They say Big Girls don't cry
   but that's a painful lie!

Because Yesterday I cried
 for growing up without Daddy at home.....
   Mom, big Brotha and me on our own.

I cried for nine months of pregnancy by myself
couldn't cry then, to afraid for my baby's health.

I cried for every doctors appointment, birthday
and Christmas my son had without Daddy there,
I cried because I can make him pay
but I can't make him care.

I cried tears of self pity, anger, jealousy and rage,
I cried like a bird who wants out of his cage.

They say Big Girls don't cry they save pride
so when asked how I felt I LIED and held it inside....
      but my soul slowly began to die.

So Today I cried and my soul was resurrected
with the release of tears.

I cried and cried a way I had not cried in years.

The salty waters washed over me,
and my authentic self I could finally see.

I'm a BIG Girl but I do cry,
deal with what I feeling and no longer live with lies!