Last time I saw you
you were vibrating and shaking
under my weight.

Thinking I was ready,
willing to go steady
my inner conflict too heavy

Not wanting to play games
but sure your love was real,
can't connect still.

Be a lie if I said
I never wondered
if you thought of, yearned for, loved me
foreal.

The prettiest backside ever seen,
the craziest dream granted
still time slanted
and more demanded,

Be a lie to say 
I didn't want you to myself,
a lie if never wondered about you and someone else -
I glower over yesterdays
wondering what's next
because I long that joy
you share, forever.

In the next time,
maybe I'll appear at the right time
without the generational disconnect
and you'll be mine,
only.