I try to let go of things and not think so negatively,
But it is hard for me to decipher among those who are for and against me.

I have to wonder why someone may choose to befriend me,
Is it because in a friendship I give of myself completely?

So why I am smiling on the outside my mind in is constant turmoil,
And I often wonder why I can not get a friend to be loyal.

So to every one who has thought "I can not deal with her switchin' out!"
Please read this poem and you will learn what it's all about!

If I see  someone who can get what they want at the drop of a dime,
To me, being my friend would only be a waste of their time!

It is possible that you have no intentions of getting what you want from me,
But with this battle of the mind, this is all that I can see.

I guess I don't love myself and that is why I feel unsecure,
But when people walk in and out of your life then how can I be so sure.

This is a valid argument and I am sure I am not convincing you,
Because you think that I crave attention in all that I do.

But in retrospect I want the opposite, I would like to stay low key,
I just want a genuine person to finally befriend me.

Just know that there in a constant battle in my mind and that is a fact,
I want a  bestfriend with absolutely no strings attached.