Each morning I wonder
Will it be today
Will my heart listen to my brain
Maybe it won’t be as bad as yesterday
Today I will be relieved of my pain
As soon as I opened my eyes
thoughts of you invaded my mind
I was hoping I would at least get through
the morning feeling okay
there is just no way
I wook up feeling
empty and hopeless
missing you like I usually do
I want to stop
I don’t want to miss you
I don’t want to think of you
I don’t want to do this
I want to be free from you
Get an hour
to myself, where thoughts, smell, and sounds
don’t remind me of you
If I get 1 hour of peace today
maybe tomorrow I could get 3
4 hours the next time and so on
sooner or later you just become a passing thought
on my drive home from work
but right now every hour of every day 
I miss you, I think of you in some kind of way
the pain never seems to stop
I can’t call you
I can’t write you
I can’t see you
I can’t be near you
because if I do 
The pain starts over again
I’ve got to have some hope 
that I’m at least halfway through
to forgetting you
to stopping this pain
so I can’t take the chance
of making a new memory with you
I can’t hear any words from you
I have to live with nothing
Nothing from you or about you
Because I’m trying to live my life
without loving you
It’s the hardest thing I’ve had to do