Life has become death, of living I despair
My soul cries for a saviour, but I allow no fear
'My body must be vanquished!', my mind shouts in anguish
I block my ears! I can't shut it out! My mind screams and screams!
Enough, enough!
No more pain, no more sadness, No more! No more...!

I must be calm I must contemplate
I must savour my last moments as I decide my fate
'Heaven?   Tell me, is there a hell?'
Is death blissful sleep or fire?
God have you left me?  Can I aspire?
To join you - to rise - to fly
Surely you understand, I cannot stay
You see why I must do it, why I must go away
Something awaits on the other side
Nothing is left, out goes the tide... of my life
Please understand that I cannot go on...

Through a haze I remember past successes, the tinkling sound of my own
laughter
The warmth of a smile of a love that was mine
Now all that is before me - painfully clear - is the hurt and the pain
and...the fear?
I am afraid - I admit it, I am - I was... I expire
In the death of my body lies the death of my hope - of my tomorrow -
of me
Maybe if I wait, just one more day, maybe things will be better then,
maybe
NO
It must be done,
I am too weak to live, I must be strong
strong enough to die, strong enough to kill

To kill?, I cAN't, I cAN'T, I CAN'T!
I must, I mUSt, I mUST, I MUST!
Tears on the blade catches my eye,
Its glints - such colour, pretty lights
See as it comes closer, as the blade tilts...
Oh no!   They fall, the light is gone ... so is my life

Ohh...it stings, blood is red, life is white powder
White powder soothes my veins
Feeling so good but my consciousness wanes
Is this death, am I dying?
I can't see!  I can still smile... sighing
No! No! I don't want to go
Not like this, I want tomorrow
God forgive me,

A final bright flash - as clear as the daylight I will never see
It speaks of my life the way it used to be
When I was alive and so happy
I smile... I cry - I sigh
Forgive me... I shiver - I die.

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