by Soyini Denise Liburd

 I remember hearing you read your poem that first
 That was the first time
 I thought maybe I could love you
 I cried for you then,
 Did you notice?
 I thought the pain we shared
 could hold us together.
 So much of my own hurt
 looked out at me from your eyes.
 I wanted to hold you then
 and comfort you...
 I wanted you then,
 Did you notice?
 I thought we didn't need words...
 I thought you understood me
 and I could love the you that you showed me...
 I know now.
 I was wrong.
 I cannot move the mountain
 standing between our love.
 But I am a coward
 So I wait silently for you to see.
 There is nothing there.
 Hiding in my body - waiting for you to leave it
 Yet you come again and again
 Without ever looking up - without question
 So that my eyes fail to show you
 And my lips cannot say
 And yesterday was tomorrow,
 And still I wait
 Because I am a coward
 ... and you never did understand me.

Understanding by Soyini Denise Liburd

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