I gave it up - for years
Living as part of me - 
Through tears
Perservered ...
Thinking of victory 
Was it worth it, could it be ...?
The pain that I brought to me?
That lived within me?
Screamed!
No.  That listened to my screams!

Fighting for sanity
Praying that the line I see
is the finish line drawing near 
Not hullucinations
mad creations
not visions
blurred from tears.

Is it true?
Do I near 
the end ... of my pain
Success imagined
so dim, almost slain
Cannot be compared
to me Alive again
Will I stumble?
Before I gain?

My fear
is falling ...
As only
Part of me ...

Sacrifice?
No truly ...
Simply
An investment
in...sanity