I remember joy,
Seems so far away now
Buried deep, in memories sweet 
... yet somehow, painful
Now that life is living only
Future
Pleasure 
... doubtful

I remember joy.
And I want so much to have it with me
I want it suddenly, simply
Yet I'm terrified, 
That it will be,
Harder than easy
To reclaim bliss, where I set it from me 
seeking life instead ... 
Glory
...yet not only. 
'Cause sacrifice is noble 
or so you told me.

Then why is it hard to remember 
why I had to leave my joy.

...not forever, or so I told ME
One day to return to thee
with Everything ...

I cry for joy,
Now that accomplishments golden
Have faded in my dreams.
This isn't what it was to be!
I want my joy back, now I see
That the grass isn't greener
where I came to be
Fear that I am lost cripples me.
Still,
I long for joy.

Please return me, full circle
to pleasures simple.
I would give Everything 
to have again Joy