Still find myself looking out for you sometimes
when I forget that you're gone
and that time has passed.
In my mind, I see you coming back to me
Not walking away - not leaving
I know it looks like you've left me, standing here now
But it's just all the tears
making everything look all crazy
Not my reality.
Everyday I wake up something reminds me that itís real
that you're gone
And still by the time I get dressed
and step outside - around every corner
I still find myself looking out for you.
Close my eyes and think you didn't leave me...
Will I ever remember through a whole day
or is all of that hurt still too much for me?
Damn - sometimes I'm thinking your hiding,
looking at me
Just behind me - or to that side
or faking like you're someone else
I know it was you.
Went and ran away before I got there
It was your shoulder I leaned on
I'd know it anywhere
But I try to stretch my mind out and touch it
And someone else's face turns round trippin
Shouting "crazy bitch..."
Fuck em. I'm not crazy
The world's just tryin to mess with my mind
Trying to make sure that everyday I remember
But everyday I will forget.
I know one day you'll surprise me
You have to.
Cause you can't be gone.
Cause all of that hurt is too much for me.