Dear Mommy,
It is your little girl
And she’s crying again
I love you mommy,
Tell me you know
Tell me you see
Tell me you feel my love
With everything I do
Good or bad
Black or white
Proud or shameful
For I do love you mommy
But do you love me
Do you want me
Are you proud
Of the young lady I’ve become
And the woman I
Will one day be
For I can’t see you mommy
I can’t see the love
I can’t feel
Nor can I stand
The pain you put me through
Everyday
Do I hurt you mommy,
When I say the wrong thing
When I do the wrong thing
And yet feel happy I did it
Do I hurt you mommy,
Cuz you hurt me
When I do anything
That isn’t to your liking
Yet as I grow, I know
There isn’t anything
I can do to make you happy
To make you smile at me
To make you proud
My life is hell mommy
With you in it,
Yet I find it would be hell
Without you
I love you mommy,
But your love is painful
Hurtful
And full of an emotion
My heart cannot fathom
Nor can it endure
I pray for you mommy
I pray for your life
Your love
And your happiness
I pray that I can rid myself
Of this growing pain
Of the growing hatred
Of you…for you
I’m unhappy mommy
Can’t you see
Don’t you see my tears falling
Can’t you feel my pain
With every word you speak
I want to go away mommy
Get away from you,
>From life with you,
>From everything
I want to grow without you
So one day I can say
I did it without you…
Aren’t you proud
Help me mommy,
Help me get better, 
Cuz daddy can’t help me
Brother can’t help me
Only you can
I need you, I love you and
Want you to love me back
Talk is cheap mommy
So your words of love
Fade with your contradictory
Action of disappointment
When will it end mommy
When will my pain fade
And your love grow
Cuz I’m tired mommy
So sick of this torture
I want to scream in pain
Every second of every day
Till my voice cracks from
The agony, and still 
Scream louder
You don’t hear me mommy
For even my words won’t register
Even my pain won’t trigger
The relationship that is
You and I
And that fact that it’s dying
I always thought
If anyone, you would hear me
Know me and understand
But you don’t, you really don’t
So don’t tell me you do
Cuz I won’t believe you
You don’t notice me mommy
Until I do something bad
Something wrong, evil
Yet so many good things I’ve done
So many nice words of love
Of pride and trust
And yet rarely do I feel appreciated
Why won’t you touch me
Why does my skin frighten you
You won’t hug me anymore
And it hurts
I’m sorry mommy,
Sorry that I had to tell you
I’m unhappy, and it’s your fault
Sorry that you don’t seem to know
Sorry that you don’t care
Sorry that you can’t seem to
Show the love you claim is there
You don’t know me mommy
No, actually, you don’t
That part of me you know
Is the part I show to all
That part that masks the girl
In pain, in Satan’s hell fire
Look at me mommy,
Can’t you see my bruises
The blood that falls, drips
From my swollen face,
From the blows of your
Hurtful words and stares
I’m different now mommy,
My face, my soul
Is different, stronger
It has to be to live with you
To like you…
Can’t you be sweet mommy,
Loving, compassionate
I fear you mommy, 
I fear your cruel words and
Harsh truth that a mother 
Shouldn’t give her daughter
But her daughter should find 
And learn herself
Remember mommy,
I still love you no matter what
But I’m still crying
Still dying
Waiting, asking, praying for
Your soul to come and save me
From the life’s hell