At night I was always scared

Tense but I was never prepared

Heightened awareness flared

Heavy breathing

I’d close my eyes tight 

and pretend no one was there.

Couldn’t yell out

No one would care

And if I spoke out

NEVER MIND I DIDN’T

I ACTED OUT

Extension cords felt like a whip 

cause I was made to strip down

Trying to hide cause my body was bare

Mentally I was no longer there

Pissed the bed cause my nerves were on edge

Wet sheets crumpled up underneath my bed.

My stories were always turned against me

No matter what I said

Thinking crawl down the side of the house

I can make it from the second story ledge

Always misread

I stand silent storms in my head

Out of control

Violent indecisive poisoned from rays

Ultra violet lost and couldn’t find it

Always more comfortable 

with the shadows I walk beside with

 

Awakened by lightning

Sweating out of breath

Cause my dreams all night I’d been fighting

Images of a little boy hiding

I’m writing pieces connect

But the storm brought on 

more turbulence that perciden

A flash of lightning

Flashing search lights,

BUT I’M NOT GOING BACK

Troubled Times

I’M STILL WRITING

Threat of capsizing

Hold my breath

Going under

STILL RHYMING