It's the hurt that won't go away
The long cold winter nights
That dominate after summer fades
It's the reflection of loss
A dull aching pain
My realization of life never being the same 

It's watching smiles and laughter
Someone elses forever after
The fading notes of a love song
Bitter recriminations tallying who did wrong
What once was real
Now just a faded memory of a broken deal 

I've reaped sadness and melancholy 
A bountiful harvest with no market to sully
A list of faces and names
No attachment just a personal shame
Are these lessons learned
Haven't enough scars of broken love been earned

Emptiness and sadness
Despair that could lead to madness
Dizzy from the circling
Crying out in yearning
What is current state
Is this the meaning of love hate