Oh heart!
What is it you so desire?
That you would sacrifice your pride and very soul…
For the chance of something
different
These diversions from life can only be temporary
and peace is an impossibility
How long can you quietly fear
the night?
When reality does set in
you will have nothing, not even sanity
Is it negative self perception?
Or an obsession
with pain?
An unconscious effort to rebel against your own achievement?
You would remain confused!
God gave you strength and beauty and the light to imagine
sunshine on rainy days
Yet you simplify yourself into a state of oblivious strife
Wanting the hurt
Finding solace in your wounds
Why the indifference?  Why the tolerance for damage?
Yet another diversion, perhaps
to find acceptance?
Before another plunge into this hopeless state of perplexity
I beg you to consider
The liberation of knowing love…..
For yourself