After the lights, formal greetings, the speeches, 
 kind words from loved ones, the prayers and eternal 
 wishes of hope and peace…comes silence
The moment of repeated memories and recollections
To be in this lonesome state of mind, state of self, state 
 of presence
To want…to need the past
To ignore the future, because you’re not in it
It just becomes so hard and…I cry
To release this hurt, this anguish, this emptiness
My mind twirls and does a double back-flip and crash 
 lands into itself
Nothing seems to matter and my emotional state
 suffers…I suffer…alone
Left with visuals my eyes can’t seem to blink away
And to understand that the only way we’re together
 is in my heart
Realizing it beats for us
I place my hand over my chest to feel you and a smile
 joins the tears on my face for you
Can’t explain how I feel, so, I sit and miss you
Determined to stay strong, but all I can do right now
 is release these watered down frustrations
…As I sit here and write about you, thinking of you
 in your time of need
In need of life passed
Knowing you’ve lost a piece of the weakest part of you
I think of when you’re alone and hope you know you
 never really are
And as they watch over you…I’m there with you too