your seed was planted deep inside of me
when life began on earth
but as time progressed, I strayed
failing to recognize your worth
so now I stand in desolation
searching to fill a void, which is you
which I destroyed because I was untrue
not only to you, but also to myself
for I betrayed my own essence
which is contained in your presence
and without you, I am only half a man
the pain of your absence 
has caused me to understand
that I owe you more than the world
I owe you me
for I was, and still am, to some degree
a lost soul
thinking I could improve vitality 
in blonde and blue
when in reality, the standard of beauty is you
mind, body and soul
my soul flower