Troubled Heart

by Lady Kea Simone

My heart is troubled. I questioned writing about this particular subject because as I always say, I may step on a few toes.

Nevertheless, I must put it out there. People may not agree with me, but I'm coming from a good place in my heart. At the end of the day, the only person I have to answer to is God. So here it goes.

When we call ourselves "Christians" are we committed to the relationship? Once we accept God as our Lord and Savior, a relationship is formed. It's like a marriage. Although, our Father is forgiving and full of grace and mercy, why do we treat him so badly? We say we love Him, but do we really?

I remember one morning, pulling up to my job and as I entered the parking lot I heard a small voice. The voice said, "Now you know how I felt, all the times you left me." So, to back track. After my husband and myself separated, I was devastated. I couldn't grasp the idea that my husband no longer wanted to be in a marriage. I asked the Lord to show my husband how much he was hurting me by making his decision to leave. I was full of so many whys as to why this ordeal was happening to me of all people.

Prior to my separation, I had fallen away from God. However, when things got heavy, I found my way back to Him. As usual, He accepted me back. That's just how He is. He loves us unconditionally.

Be that as it may, for weeks after my separation from my husband, God was silent. Then He broke His silence one morning. Without a doubt, my heart knew what He meant when He said, "Now you know how I felt, all the times you left me."

I was a back and fourth Christian. Without a second thought, I would break up with Him(God) when my life seemed to be going good and I didn't think I needed Him as much, then when a crisis came, I would always run back to Him. Why? Well, I took His love for me for granted and I never realized that it hurt Him when I walked away from Him. So the same way I was hurt by my husband walking away, God was telling me, He hurt as well when we walk away from Him. This was the day that I began to look at God in a whole different way. This is also the day when I began an intimate relationship with Him.

My friends: Don't allow yourself to be conformed to this world because it is a trick of the enemy. There is a problem when you can't tell the difference between a Christian and a non-believer. As Christians we should not be behaving like the rest of the world. We should stand out. We are the light of the world; a world full of darkness. People should not see us, but see Him through us. I can't be anybody but me. So when people say, "Here come the church lady." I'll take it. I'd rather be in good standing with the Lord than trying to please those of this world. You can still have fun as a Christian without looking like the rest of the world. I believe there is a happy medium.

Trust me, I'm not walking around here, throwing oil on people and scaring them with a whole bunch of scriptures while making them feel bad about the way they live their lives. Instead, I approach non-believers with love and because God is a God of free will, the choice is theirs.

So ask yourself this, are you breaking His heart by cheating on Him with the enemy? The Bible says, "No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money." Matthew 6:24

Always a Lady,

Lady Kea Simone

Troubled Heart by Lady Kea Simone

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