Listening to the echoes of my thoughts 
As they gently tap against these four walls...
The question appears...
What do you say to someone 
You gained and lost in one week...?
When she was pregnant, my mind 
Took me through the realms 
Of potential happily ever afters...
Birthdays..
Holidays...
Graduations...
Marriages...
Then became the puzzle of what he...
Or she...would look like. 
Would they inherit my smile 
Or their mother's eyes 
Yet otherwise, they can see with mine
While learning to smile from her. 
So the hurt stabbed those dreams
At the most inappropriate time 
When their first time saying Dada
Looking at me with eyes that look like mine. 
How could I say goodbye...
If I never got to say hello...
How can I hold the memory of them...
If I never even saw their face.
The silence...deafening in my ears 
As it was the sound of my love's heart 
Literally breaking 
Especially with the way of her saying
"I'm so sorry..."
As if she was expecting me to use her 
As a punching bag for blaming...
A peculiar situation...
When in actuality, I wanted to 
Turn myself in for falsfication 
That everything will be okay. 
Her skin is colder when we lay...
As if the heart formed ice 
Due to the lack of warmth from within...
My prayers lie with Him...
Asking for a blessing in the womb 
So that she and I known as we...
Will make the true of the math equation...
1 + 1 =3...
But until then...
I'll just have to wait. 
So to my son/daughter...I wanted to say hello and goodbye...
And wanted to tell you for the first time...
That I love you.