Behind God's Back

by Hakim

I laugh at him, her-- whatever it is
God, I see no God
I feel no divinity, 
No Supreme Being around me 
I feel pain 
I feel hurt
I ache 
Behind Godís back I must be 
Cause I swear to God that God canít see me 
I bathe in his shadow
I sit alone 
I stare, I watch to see if it changes 
If anyone cares
I sometimes feel as if I shouldnít be here
I canít find anything to believe in anymore 
I canít find anything to hold on to 
No one holds on to me 
Iím either here or I am gone 
I have come to a dark place in my life
A dark, dry lonely place 
By my self
No light at the end of the tunnel 
My Daddy lied when he left 
It doesnít get better 
Only worse 
Only much worse 
Only hurt
Only pain
No happiness for me 
Only Pain
Who am I to want? 
Who am I to receive? 
I never gave 
I gave
But never all of me
I suppose I could have given more
I tried 
I did

Behind God's Back by Hakim

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