I laugh at him, her-- whatever it is
God, I see no God
I feel no divinity, 
No Supreme Being around me 
I feel pain 
I feel hurt
I ache 
Behind God’s back I must be 
Cause I swear to God that God can’t see me 
I bathe in his shadow
I sit alone 
I stare, I watch to see if it changes 
If anyone cares
I sometimes feel as if I shouldn’t be here
I can’t find anything to believe in anymore 
I can’t find anything to hold on to 
No one holds on to me 
I’m either here or I am gone 
I have come to a dark place in my life
A dark, dry lonely place 
Silence 
Alone
By my self
No light at the end of the tunnel 
My Daddy lied when he left 
It doesn’t get better 
Only worse 
Only much worse 
Only hurt
Only pain
No happiness for me 
Only Pain
Anger
Animosity 
Selfishness
Who am I to want? 
Who am I to receive? 
I never gave 
I gave
But never all of me
I suppose I could have given more
I tried 
I did