Inside of me, 70 years old blessed in gray
She’s talking to me about time wasted 
She’s telling me to smile more and worry less
Because she’s seen  the days ahead 
and she knows I have every reason to “smile now and cry later”
Dreamy, 10 year old girl is laughing 
She never saw me like this 
Her imagery was far too great
And yet she’s still laughing, despite my mistakes 
She wonders what happened to the doctor-the lawyer inside of me 
She wonders, but doesn’t ask, where are my clothes 
She looks in the mirror now- 
Insecure
At the age of 25-
Hard egg-but not done-not enough heat to be solid 
Must keep living-fragile 
Uncertain but no longer searching for the answer 
Instead wishes she knew what questions to ask