Inconsistency abounds...
Promises of forever
magically transcend  into 
not now. 
And then, never. 
Crushing blows 
to my self esteem
in my dreams
I still remember 
how it was 
in our yesterday's. 
Now awakened,
my nerves are shaken
resonating in the reality
of you and me
no longer meant to be
and I'm hurt. 
Not sure where 
it went wrong
or why I'm suddenly
unworthy of the love
you once so freely gave, 
but my heart says
I'll be okay,
And though I know this 
to be true, the hardest 
concept to accept
is my disappointment 
in you. 
The inconsistency 
of our compatibility 
I ponder, 
what must be wrong
with me? 
Opening my eyes
to see, it's not exclusively 
either -
Rather, your failure 
to be an honorable man,
and my ignorance 
in blindly honoring you. 
Now here I stand
with abused and beaten 
heart in hand,
forced to love myself
back to good health
With absolutely 
no help from you
due to your lack of virtue
And I'm okay with that...
Because of my
consistent love, for me.