Approval seeking prima donna
Complete with attention deficit disorder
Should ensure that you remember me
Long after our paths have uncrossed
And monogrammed memories
Be the albatross
Threatening your current situation
Allow the subtle manipulation
Of remembrances
To tease you into submission-
And when you succumb
Will-worn to what could have been
Remember that you were warned
And you will mourn my passing
Let the last thing we said
Be forever embedded in your skull
Wallpapered words
That refuse to fall or decay with time
And in dreams
Let the only vision you look upon
Be mine-
Immortalised perpetually
In youthful grace
Heady cloying impertinence
Let the past tense invade your present
Until you cry out for escape
Not even waking hours will save you
I want to the femme fatal who
Makes you hide in your garage
Twenty years after the fact
Unearthing love letters
Whose message holds compact
Upon archaic, crumbling borders
Grasped light between your fingers
To preserve them until your deathbed-
The woman
Who turns your head in supermarkets
On buses
In hope
The only living ghost
Unburied eternally haunting
I never quite believed I could break you
Make you question decisions you made
Undress your future
Leaving its paltry corpse on display
To turn your appetite
And all at once
Choices so right at the time
Are relegated to the back of closets
Never to be worn-
The glare off your ring faded
The prom king crown
No longer befitting a receding hairline
Allow me to accept the blame
For a willingness to please
Owing to my childhood innocence
Apologies that I couldn’t sit still
Never seemed quite at ease
In anticipation of your disappearance
Under the guise of my apparent faults
Let the wisdom instilled in adults
Correct all inconsistencies
Regarding our history
Experience soften harsh edges
Until hindsight bring you to your knees
A mere shell of a man
Broken
Begging
Begging
Begging my forgiveness
And know that
While hell hath no fury-
And age fosters empathy
In other more malleable females-
We drama queens couldn’t care
Less.
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