Could of stopped it long ago,
But I knew what I was doing--
Setting the trap.
So now I see him everyday in someone else's face,
But I love the little one more,
More than anyone before.
I should have Known,
Should have Grown
Wiser with the pregnancy,
"He won't commit to me, he won't commit to baby."
Now I have him eternally,
Internally,
I can't stand him,
Want to demand of him
"Handle your business, MAN."
Immediately, I grow from child to woman.
My shorty thinks just mommy is the norm
He's conformed
To this lifestyle.
My constant giving, never taking
Making the best of this single parent situation.
I'm hoping he will purge and not give in
To the sin, I gave in to.
Like a fresh wound, the pain is still new,
Thinking "Am I over him,
Are we through?"

Never.

Could of stopped it long ago
But I knew what I was doing--
Setting the trap.