Today I . . .


Today I feel the weight


From all of my past mistakes


And I can't seem to find


The strength to do what it takes


 


Today I miss my mother


And I miss my daughters even more


One is gone and one is leaving


The pain I can't ignore


 


Today I feel unattractive


Though physically I look the same


I just feel so ugly inside


And my mirror is not the blame


 


Today I have no dreams


I can't seem to look past this minute


Right now I despise this world


And just about everything in it


 


Today I just feel empty


Or maybe numb is a better word


Don't know whether to cry or scream


They both seem so absurd


 


Today I feel so weak


As if Delilah has crossed my path


While I sit distraught and hurt


She just looks and laughs


 


Today I don't feel like writing


Poetry can sooth my nerves


The more I put pen to paper


I realize it's just rhyming words


 


Today I Praise God


For all my pain and sorrow


He loves me unconditionally


And Today will be yesterday Tomorrow