You took my compassion for weakness
And used it against me
You took my intelligence for stupidity
And insulted me
You took my confidence away
And gave me low self-esteem
You lifted your right hand to God
And hit me on the left
You balled up your left hand
And punched me on the right
You spit on me, cussed me out 
and even kicked me when I was down
Then, you told me you love me
You apologized for the bruise on my cheek
The one fractured rib
And the humiliation I endured
I believed you when you said it would never happen again
I trusted you when you told me that was the last time
I had faith in you when you promised me 
you would only touch me to hug me
Until, I forgot to cook your favorite
Didn't answer the phone 
Tell you where I was going
Or was too tired to make love
I begged you to stop
You only hit me harder
I pleaded with you to stop
You threw me on the floor
I prayed for God to take my soul
I couldn't suffer any longer
MAC only makes so much foundation
I was running out of lies
And I'd lost my sunglasses
Again, I prayed for God to take me
My body was tired 
My mind was bruised
And my emotions were shattered
The next morning
I looked in the mirror
And reminded myself that I'm beautiful
Remembered that I am smart
I realized that I don't have to live like this
But I do have to live
It's now five years later
And I'm still living
I may not have the best of the best
Nor do I have the worst of the worst
I have something more special than that
I have my life 
And dammit I'm living it