I AM SO STRESSED!
My shoulders feel like bricks'r
Sittin on em a mile high
Mental anguish
Mental suicide
I'm shuttin down
Broke down
In the filthy gutters
Swimmin through sewarage
Gaspin for my sanity
Doggy paddlin 
Reachin for reality
Barely survival floatin
I'm in the middle of the dead sea
Negative energy 
Constantly surrounding me
Zombie walkin through life
Chasin false hopes
Believing False dreams
All this strife
Contributing 
To my low self-esteem
Red Alert!
Lights flashing
Ding, ding, ding
Da bombs on its way
Out cold
Shuddering 
Shivering
Darkness
On the sunniest of days
Eyes twitchin
Blood vessels poppin
Ears on fire
cursin my next victim
who's innocent
and unaware 
of their mothers pain
committing parental sins
equaling the Nth power
adding to the stress and strain
I gots to regain
My composure
Repot the flower in me
Protect, nourish 
And water my seeds
Break down the barrier
That keeps me barred down
That keeps me half dressed
Half fed
And whole bound
Serpent
Slitherin
Poisinous
Turpentine
Husband 
Friend 
Lover
All lies
It was all a lie
Living unconscientiously
I was
stripped
I was beaten
I was raped
Deprived
Neglected
Malnourished
maltreated
defeated
lied on
cheated on
stole on
and mulled
spit on
kicked
choked
all while my stomach bulged
promises unkept
needs neglected
promises broken
apologetic words unspoken
promises tossed
faith distraught
promises diminished
but a renewed life is beginning
my mind is free
vision clear
heart healin
ousting out that villain
new hope
dawn of the horizon
new birth
spiritual baptism
new day
awakening
stress relieved
peaceful sleep
head held high
shoulders back
proud posture
reclaimin my stride
genuine smiles
happy laughter
new friends
old acquaintances 
I breath again, Love again
Live again
Without remorse
I'll do all these things
Just as soon as I
Finalize my divorce!