He said he wanted me to believe in him when this world didn't
Because that was a sign of how deep my love went...
So I invested my whole self in the concept of the whole man he could be...
Even though I found myself drowning in the dehydration of my low self esteem
He asked me to hold on to my belief in him
Because it was the one thing that assured his hope in our love
But he didn't realize it was hard to hold onto what was intangible
When the tangible mouths of our children were crying to be fed
And his sustenance never seemed to reach their hungry bellies.
He chastised me for letting doubt cloud the vision he placed in my view
Which blocked the visions of divinity I was striving towards when he met me
Not realizing that one vision did not have to be forsaken for the other
when we let El Roi...the Lord who Sees... lead the way
But he said Jehovah-Jirah...the Lord who provides... was to slow for him,
as he hoped on the alligators back to cross the river of life.
He said he wanted me to believe in him...but that was hard to do
When he didn't believe...In me.